Wednesday, March 4, 2015

After The Fire by Felice Stevens ~ (Blog Tour, ARC Review, Excerpt, Giveaway)

After The Fire by Felice Stevens ~ (Blog Tour, ARC Review, Excerpt, Giveaway)
Title: After the Fire
Series: Through Hell and Back #2
Author: Felice Stevens
Genre: Adult, Gay Romance
Release Date: February 24, 2015
A single bullet destroyed the dreams of Dr. Jordan Peterson. With the man he loved dead, Jordan descends into an endless spiral of pain that nearly costs him his friends, his career and his life. When Jordan meets the aloof Lucas Conover, the investment banker’s mysterious past and unexpected kindness shocks Jordan back to a life he thought was lost forever.

Betrayal and abandonment by the foster brother he’d worshiped as a child taught Lucas Conover never to trust or believe in anyone. Living a solitary life did little to free him of the nightmare of his past; it reinforces his belief he wasn’t meant to fall in love. Working closely with Dr. Jordan Peterson forces him to meet another person whose suffering equals his own and Lucas can’t shake the unexpected the first man to ever get under his skin.

Mutual respect and rising desire bring Jordan and Luke closer than they ever imagined, and each man must come to terms with their past as they struggle to create a future together. And learning to trust in themselves and love again after tragedy and a lifetime of pain, may be the only thing that saves them in the end.

After the Fire Excerpt © Felice Stevens 2015

“Damn, you look like shit.” Ash’s sharp gaze raked him up and down. “Ow.” He rubbed his arm when Drew elbowed him. “Don’t get mad at me, baby. You know he does. Look at him.” 

“Can we come in, Jordy?” Drew’s kind smile strangely made him feel worse, not better. 

He said nothing and pulled the front door wider for his friends, leaving them to trail behind him back through the house and into the spacious kitchen. Sunlight poured onto the terra-cotta floors and glinted off the glass-fronted maple cabinets. The kitchen was his pride and joy, and when he and Keith bought the brownstone, it had been the only room he cared about decorating. Jordan had always loved staring out of the large bay window as he relaxed with his cup of coffee in the morning. 

“Did you have a party?” Drew tipped his head to the table, still cluttered with vodka bottles. 

“Party of one, more likely.” 

Jordan heard Ash’s muttered remark, and despite a throbbing head and a roiling stomach, he lashed out. 

“Shut up, Davis.” He and Ash had never had the easiest of relationships, and even though Jordan knew how happy Drew was, the man still irritated the hell out of him. 

“Why, Jordan? The truth hurts?” Ash’s voice, oddly enough, neither condemned nor derided him. Instead, it held an overall note of sadness, mixed with empathy that pulled Jordan up short. “You sit here, night after night, refusing our dinner invitations, as well as any social contact with Rachel, Mike, or even Esther. Don’t think we don’t know what you’re doing and why.” 

Jordan winced. Shit. A kindhearted, sympathetic Ash Davis was almost worse than the usual sarcastic attitude he dished out to everyone. “I’m not in the mood for company; that’s all.” 

“And I call bullshit on that. You’re still mourning Keith, and I get that, but that doesn’t mean you don’t go on living. When your only company since he died has been vodka or whiskey, you’re heading for disaster.” 

“Jordy.” Drew slung an arm around his shoulder. “I’m worried about you. You’ve lost weight, skipped days at the hospital, and I was told that during surgery last week—” 

“Are you checking up on me?” He pulled away from Drew, shaking with anger. “What the fuck, man? You’re not my goddamn keeper.” Humiliation, shame, and a sense of despair tore through him as he turned away from his two friends to go back and sit at the kitchen table. He ran his hands over the battered wood of the long farmhouse table. He remembered how happy he and Keith had been to find it in the small Pennsylvania town they’d stumbled upon oneSaturday. Making love on top of it after lugging it up the stairs of the brownstone was a memory etched forever in his mind. He gripped the edge of the table to steady himself. 

A few deep breaths settled him, yet he couldn’t face his friends. 

For over thirty years he and Drew had been friends; the man knew him better than anyone else. People might think Drew Klein was sweet and easygoing, but Jordan knew the core of steel within his friend. Drew refused to back down if he thought he could help. True to form, Drew dropped into the chair right next to him, challenging and direct. 

“Jordan. Look at me.” 

It took an effort to tear his gaze away from the tabletop, but he inhaled a deep breath and smiled into Drew’s face. “What is it?” 

Drew seemed taken aback that Jordan was smiling and not lashing out with his usual anger. “I’m not checking up on you. It’s common knowledge that you showed up to your first surgery since Keith died and had to wait an extra hour to start because you had the shakes.” Drew’s mouth thinned to a hard line. “Are you crazy showing up drunk for surgery? You could lose your fucking license, for God’s sake.” 

“I wasn’t drunk. I was overtired and hadn’t eaten since lunchtime the day before.” 

Behind him he heard Ash snort with laughter. “Are you fucking kidding me, Jordan? You can come up with a better one than that.” 

“Fuck off, Ash,” he shot back. “I couldn’t care less about your opinion.” 

“Do you care about mine, Jordy? Don’t lie to me.” Drew’s stare remained unflinching, his eyes soft and knowing. “I know you’re still having a hard time moving on from Keith’s death, but it’s going to be a year soon.” 

“It’s only been nine months. God almighty, did you expect me to forget him already?” Horrified, Jordan swept his hand across the table, sending the empty bottles and food containers crashing to the floor. “Could you forget Ash so quickly? Keith and I were together for almost four years. Stop pressuring me to move on with my life. It’s over for me. There will never be anyone else.” 
Tracy's Review:
5 Stars

*This book was provided to me by the author/publisher via Enticing Journey Book Promotions in exchange for an honest review*

I am so glad Felice wrote this story. I was so heartbroken for Jordan at the end of "A Walk Through Fire".

After 4 years of being in a loving relationship Jordan's Fiancé Keith is taken from him by a bullet. Even after 9 months Jordan is still so heartbroken, lost, barely existing or functioning. The only thing that holds Jordan on this earth and stops him from ending it all, is the guilt of putting his parents through facing his own death.

Lucas has pulled himself up from nothing to become a successful financial advisor. He was abandoned by his foster brother and left to try to protect himself and another younger foster brother from their abusive foster father. When he is left alone and abandoned by everyone in Georgia, he makes his way to NYC, finds a shelter and works hard to make himself the man he is today.

Jordan and Lucas are forced to work together to get the community center up and running. When Lucas sees Jordan for the first time he can't help but feel sympathy for the broken man who stands before him.

Jordan is attracted to Lucas, but is he ready to move on? Can he get past the guilt he feels for wanting another man?

Jordan and Lucas want each other, but first they have to face their demons. Will they do it together or apart?

I LOVED this book. I couldn't put it down. I loved both Lucas and Jordan and together, they were electric!! When they came together sparks flew and the pages of my iPad lit up like a The Fourth of July! They had an amazing chemistry from their very first meeting. This book takes you through so many emotions.

It was heartbreaking to see Jordan so grief stricken over the loss of Keith, to spiral so far out of control and hit rock bottom. And later confused and a little guilty about his feelings for Lucas.

It was also heartbreaking to hear of Lucas' past. To relive the horrific things he suffered through, alone and abandoned. Lucas has resigned himself to living a life alone and no one is more shocked than him at how strong his feelings for Jordan are.

It was heartwarming to watch these two men fall in love, and face their demons together. To see Lucas get the things he never thought he would, and for Jordan to get the things he never though he would have again, love and a home.

I have read everyone of Felice's books and I haven't been disappointed yet. I can't wait for more in the future from her!
I have always been a romantic at heart. I believe that while life is tough, there is always a happy ending just around the corner. I started reading traditional historical romances when I was a teenager, then life and law school got in the way. It wasn’t until I picked up a copy of Bertrice Small and became swept away to Queen Elizabeth’s court that my interest in romance novels became renewed.

But somewhere along the way, my tastes shifted. While I still enjoys a juicy Historical romance, I began experimenting with newer, more cutting edge genres and discovered the world of Male/Male romance. Once I picked up her first, I became so enamored of the authors, the character-driven stories and the overwhelming emotion of the books, I knew I wanted to write my own.

I live in New York City with my husband and two children and hopefully soon a cat of my own. My day begins with a lot of caffeine and ends with a glass or two of red wine. I practice law but daydream of a time when I can sit by a beach somewhere and write beautiful stories of men falling in love. Although there is bound to be angst along the way, a Happily Ever After is always guaranteed.