Blog Tour ~ Strong Medicine by J.K. Hogan ~ (4.5 Star Review, Guest Post, Excerpt + Giveaway)
Title: Strong Medicine
Author: J.K. Hogan
Publisher: Wilde City Press
Cover Artist: J.K. Hogan (KHD Graphics)
Release Date: 5/11/16
Heat Level: 3
Length: 97k words
Genre/Tags: Psychological, Dark, M/M Romance
Two men who meet in a psychiatric institution couldn’t possibly find happiness together—could they?
The world seemed to be telling disgraced former child star and singer Cameron Fox that he would never be happy again. A drunken car accident gets him sentenced to a work-release at Riverbend Behavioral Health Facility.
Reclusive, traumatized writer Jonah Radley has an entire graveyard of skeletons in his closet. Jonah regularly hospitalizes himself for psychotic episodes caused by a horrific childhood trauma, his biggest secret—one he refuses to speak about in therapy.
Jonah and Cameron form a bond inside the hospital, forged in mutual pain and hope for a better life. Once they leave the hospital, they must decide if they are brave enough to explore the intricacies of living with mental illness—and find a new normal together.
Jonah was feeling particularly lucid that day. He hadn’t seen any dead relatives, nothing had burned, and he actually felt like he was inside his own body, for once. He knew it wouldn’t last. It was a constant feeling of dancing on the edge of the cliff, just waiting for the one misstep that would send him plummeting into the void again.
He sat in the rocking chair, the one that had become known as ‘Jonah’s chair,’ and watched Harry the groundskeeper shovel snow off the patio next to the picture window. The scoliotic old man bent to sprinkle handfuls of rock salt over the pavers before moving on farther into the courtyard.
As usual, Jonah lost himself in the warmth of the blanket of sunlight, so much so that he was startled when he sensed a presence behind him. It was just a change in the air, a shift of the molecules, and then a new scent—sharp and heady, a mixture of cedar smoke and Old Spice. Jonah had smelled it before, yesterday. He didn’t need to see to know that the sparkly new probie was standing behind him.
And just like that, just picturing the man in his mind with his weird, shaggy blond hair, dark blue eyes, and boyish features, Jonah remembered. He’d been much younger then, the boy on the TV that his mother had sat him in front of when she couldn’t deal with his damning silence anymore. That boy, his sweet face, and even sweeter voice, had saved Jonah more times than he could count, just kept him hanging on for one more day.
Staring unblinking out the window, Jonah breathed deep of that fragrance and addressed the spectral memory of Kyle Chase. “I know you,” he whispered.
The air stilled as the movement behind him ceased, as if the other man had turned to stone.
“I loved you once.”
Footsteps. Soft, padding, staccato beats of leather against linoleum, until Jonah was face to face with his boyhood crush. Well, more like face to chest, since Jonah was seated and Kyle was looming over him. He wasn’t Kyle, of course, not really. Though Jonah strained, digging through layers of memory, he couldn’t extract the boy—man’s real name.
“Excuse me?” Not-Kyle asked, bushy eyebrows raised toward his hairline.
Jonah tried for a rueful smile, and he could practically hear his skin cracking with the effort. “Sorry, probie. It’s well known around here that I don’t make any sense. What I meant was ‘I used to watch your show.’”
“Oh. I, uh… really?”
Jonah half coughed, half grunted, because it was as close as he ever got to a laugh. “That surprises you?”
“Yes—No! I just sometimes forget that the people who used to watch my show are all grown-up now. Most of the time, I still feel like a kid, so it kind of catches me off guard.” He ran a hand through that mop of messy hair—bleached blond like he was still playing a Cali surfer boy on TV—then squatted down so that he was on Jonah’s level.
“I think you’d be the first one to call me a grown-up. I’ve been called a lot of things, but never that. Besides, I’m not as old as I look.”
“Yeah? How old?”
“Yeah, I know. That’s what hard living and insanity will do to you,” Jonah explained without a hint of malice.
“Oh, no. I’m sorry, that came out wrong… You don’t look bad. It’s the opposite, really. You look… yeah, anyway, you’re right, you do just look older than twenty-three. Not in a bad way.”
“Easy there. It’s really okay. I’m pretty hard to insult. Most of the things you could think of to say about me would be true anyway.” Jonah wiped his sweaty palms on his sweatpants and reached on out to him. “Jonah Radley.”
“Cameron Fox.” Cameron took his hand, shook it, lingered just a second longer than was proper.
“I have to admit, I was wrangling for an introduction because I couldn’t remember your real name. I figure you probably wouldn’t want me calling you Kyle.”
Cameron’s laugh was soft, cozy, like a splash of honey in some warm Earl Grey. “No, I guess not. It’s nice to meet you, Jonah Radley. Radley, that’s an unusual name.”
“Indeed it is. Not as unusual as you’d think, but yes… I did have to deal with the well-read students in school calling me ‘Boo’ all the time. But this is rural Appalachia, so it wasn’t always a problem if you get my drift.”
Jonah could see it took Cameron a moment to get the reference, but when he did, he chuckled again. “So what made you decide to join the wonderful world of psychiatric care?” Jonah asked.
Something flashed in Cameron’s eyes, a cloud, a moment of indecision, before he answered. “I got arrested.”
“Ah, you’re one of Rohan’s boys.” Jonah kept his voice neutral, careful not to seem like he was judging, because people in glass houses and all that… “A probie in every sense of the word.”
Cameron lowered his head, studied the ugly, weathered linoleum. “Unfortunately.”
“Hey, we all have pasts. At least you have a future.”
That blond head snapped up, and Cameron gaped at him. “So do you, Jonah.”
Jonah shook his head sadly, then caught sight of a pair of dark, yawning eye sockets peering through the window. One of the dead girls, of course, just when he was starting to feel human again.
He didn’t make eye contact when he spoke to Cameron. “You should go now,” he whispered.
“Go!” Jonah shouted it, his voice tinged with desperation. He never cared before, but he didn’t want this man to see him disappear, to see him float. His eyes welled up, something that hadn’t ever happened at Riverbend before, and he felt ashamed. “Please.”
“Probie!” Rohan’s rich tenor rang out across the buzzing air, slicing the tension between them. Cameron tensed, and his feet seemed to obey Rohan before the rest of him caught up. He cast one more sad, sidelong look at Jonah before he was led away.
Once he was alone, Jonah began to shake. Shivering violently though he was burning up inside, Jonah felt tears sear flaming rivulets down his cheeks. He dug the heels of his hands into his eye sockets until they ached, and eventually the tears stopped. Then there was nothing left but smoke.
*Copy provided to Bayou Book Junkie in exchange for an honest review*
27 year old Cameron Fox, a former child-actor and frontman for his families pop band, Foxfire, is sentenced to a year long work release program at Riverbend behavioral Health, after he causes an accident while driving under the influence.
23 year old Jonah Radley suffers from disassociation and hallucinations, caused by a childhood trauma. He checks himself into Riverbend twice a year, to keep himself safe. Jonah agrees to therapy, but refuses to tell the doctors what happened when he was a child.
Jonah and Cam spark a friendship, something Jonah has never had before. He's a recluse, when not in the psychiatric ward, but something about Cam calls to Jonah. Something about Cam makes him want to talk and gain his life back.
This was an amazing story. I loved both Jonah and Cam, and I wanted to take them home, wrap them up tight and keep them safe. The author did a fabulous job pulling me into Jonah's hallucinations. She kept exactly what happened a mystery for most of the story, and I was so intrigued I couldn't put the book down.
Cam and Jonah were both extremely likable and well-developed characters. The chemistry and bond they shared was amazing. This book was mysterious, sweet, angsty and sexy. It was well written and paved well. I thought the characters had good growth throughout the story.
I've read all of J.K. Hogan's m/m books and they are always very entertaining, enjoyable, and I can't wait for more! Highly recommended!!
J.K. Hogan Guest Post – Con Culture and the Introvert
If anyone reading this has followed me at all, they probably know I’ve been pretty open about my anxiety disorder. I think, on some level, everyone—especially those of us who are introverts—has some type of anxiety, some people have just lived in a generation or a situation that didn’t allow them to name those feelings. I still get people telling me to “suck it up” or “don’t worry,” even though I have a well-documented, chemical-imbalance-type, severe anxiety disorder, with a side helping of mild OCD. Needless to say, going to a convention or retreat of any kind was never on my radar until I started writing—more specifically m/m.
I went through a time in my life when I was almost completely agoraphobic. I could only go a couple of places where I was almost entirely comfortable. This was probably the lowest point in my struggle. Fast-forward a few years later and I’m married, working, writing, and getting treatment. After years of resistance, I’d finally agreed to medication. It helps—a lot—in that I can make it through trigger situations without getting physically ill or having a full panic attack.
When I wrote m/f, I’d considered some of the major cons like RT and AAD, but they seemed impossible. Since I read a lot of m/m, I decided to try out GRL. Who knows why I thought I wouldn’t freak out. It was in Atlanta, and I could drive there under my own power, which helped. I thought for sure I’d be a total wallflower, skulking in corners and living vicariously through braver souls. But, with the help of medication, I quickly formed a bond with a few people, and that gave me a buffer between myself and the big scary rest of the con.
After that year, I started coming as an author and traveling farther. Believe it or not, GRL is kind safe space anxiety-wise. No one is bothered if I have to disappear for a while to socially decompress, because most authors—and a lot of readers—have the same problems, and they understand. And I can’t imagine going through life without having known the people I’ve met over the years at GRL.
This year, as a featured author, I’ll have to speak. In front of actual people. Human people. I haven’t quite figured out how yet, because I can barely stand to make a phone call, much less do public speaking. But what I do know is I’ll have a support system—an army of introverts just like me.
Meet the Author
J.K. Hogan has been telling stories for as long as she can remember, beginning with writing cast lists and storylines for her toys growing up. When she finally decided to put pen to paper, magic happened. She is greatly inspired by all kinds of music and often creates a “soundtrack” for her stories as she writes them. J.K. is hoping to one day have a little something for everyone, so she’s branched out from m/f paranormal romance and added m/m contemporary romance. Who knows what’s next?
J.K. resides in North Carolina, where she was born and raised. A true southern girl at heart, she lives in the country with her husband and two sons, a cat, and two champion agility dogs. If she isn’t on the agility field, J.K. can often be found chasing waterfalls in the mountains with her husband, or down in front at a blues concert. In addition to writing, she enjoys training and competing in dog sports, spending time with her large southern family, camping, boating and, of course, reading! For more information, please visit www.jkhogan.com.
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